last night something bit me

i put my head on a pillow last night and i couldn't sleep. i kept my eyes closed. i kept them closed forever and i never fell asleep. when i opened my eyes in the morning, part of my thumb was missing. whats eating me when i sleep?

i noticed in the shower. i thought it was dead skin, but it was alive, and it clung to me. i ripped it off and there was blood. there's still blood. as i type this i can see the dent and i can run my finger on it and i can feel the chasm burn. i rub again. i rub again. i rub again. whats eating me when i sleep?

i tried to rinse it out and the red wouldn't leave. it just stayed there like a stained glass painting of moderate discomfort. when i try to remove the red, that's when it hurts the most. it's eating me while i'm awake.

and i write this in my bed and i wonder if i sleep will i wake up missing more of me. what's eating me while i sleep.