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sometimes i know that my plans with people won't come true
even as i'm making them

in relationships, i can feel their death before it happens
i feel it early, but not fully
so when it does end, i've already felt it

and it doesn't hurt as bad
but that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt

when people don't contribute to a conversation i'm having with them
i feel worthless

send me another text saying
'okay'
'that's sweet'
'no way'
'ya totally'

pinching my heart with every indefinite clause
i wonder if i would feel better if you didn't respond at all
we'll find out soon enough i'm sure
...
that didn't feel very good