More parts from that book i'm working on

I've been writing the following in fatigue-ridden states. 

A Series of Dreams Inbetween

6:00 AM ~ No Sleep. All Night. Still Awake. Still Asleep.

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A quiet boy came and thanked me without making a fuss and for some reason i feel better about wasting my time in a laser tag

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Leave Work.

Go Home.

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I can't feel my toes but not because they're cold even though i'm wearing shitty shoes in the snow and they're probably numb

I think it's because they haven't been touched really ever and the more i think about it the more my legs start to disappear and it's really weird because i'm on a warm bus and i can see them

but they don't feel like they're there

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Being awake for a while is weird because you get to watch everyone wake up like blood cells and they trickle around kind of lonely like i imagine my veins to look like

Also everyone holds coffee cups

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I wonder what would happen if i just started crying on the bus like would these people do anything if i rested my urinating eyes in my palms

I wonder

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I don't know the world looks better when you're tired

I think everything is prettier because you're forcing your eyes open to look at it

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Sleep.

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so last night in my head there were these spiders all over my room and they were big and small just like people but they were really big

and one was the size of my feet and it was dark and it hissed at me and it crawled towards me and i hit it with a hammer a lot until it broke and stopped hissing but it was kind of dancing on its back with twitching legs

tiny spiders were sad when the big spiders got dead and i felt bad about it

i imagine this is what world leaders feel like

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Waking Up.

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I hate going to bed and i hate waking up because they both take so long and they both are so lonely and pointless and nothing ever gets done

i like sleeping though because when i'm asleep i can meet someone and we can tape our hands together and roll around and it isn't weird because no one gives a shit until i have to take the tape off of my hands and wake up

and it's a real shame sometimes that i can't just sleep for probably ever

and it's a real shame that people don't tape their hands together

you're neat, probably

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